What if....

So recently we received back our O level MT results and it was just disappointing.
A B3 is not enough. I know I'm good in my Languages and I can't afford to waste a grade. I need to get my As because I'm weak in all my other subjects. I teared a bit when my class didn't have anyone scoring an A for Malay... and I was hoping there would be one. Me. BUT NO. I broke down again after that. Bleh, cried for a few seconds and I stopped. And Shireen just had to say that 'It's no point crying over spilled milk.' And I realised there IS a second chance which is the Nov papers and I was like, 'Oh yah.'

Silly me.

Right, now it's the countdown again for the start of O levels!

54 M O R E DAYS. It's time for me to make or break it.

Currently, it's the Phase 1 of the Preliminary Examinations and when I was doing my Mother Tongue paper, I was just thinking, "What if I fail my Prelims? Parents would definitely 'kill' me, for sureeee."
I was guilty again for not studying. Always guilty and guilty and guilty.

Can someone tell me how do I find the drive to study? I don't know, I wanna do well but I'm lazy. Sigh.

If I had the chance to turn back time, would I? I would. I don't mind if I had to be a Sec 2 student. That bad, you know?

Hopefully, I'll blog another post soon before I go for my Os. Time to work hard and stop being a sloth.