One More.

- Impromptu post -

But really, this WILL be the last (and short) post before I really go for Os.

But before that, here's some bad news; Failed my Prelims real bad.

I am truly upset about my performance. I'm really worried about the upcoming Os. I don't know whether I can get good results. I just want to make my parents proud and not disappoint them. 6 MORE DAYS 2 Os, guys, time really flies. I want to be able to look back at this post after getting my results and know that I did my best and get to the course I want.

Ok enough of the negativity in my head, here's some goooooooooooooooooooooooood news!

PROM IS GONNA HAPPEN!

I have some ideas on how I want my dress to be. 

1) BLACK, IT'S A MUST.

2) Long Dress FTW!

3) Lace, baby!

4) Vintage.

I know it's impossible to get dresses like this in Singapore. Even if I do, it has to be tailored-made or something. Going out with le friends after Os. Gonna buy my dress and shoes. Finally some shopping after months of stressing, (Ok, I'm not someone who stresses a lot, but yeah I'm trying to blend in LOL) YAY!

Okay, I see you guys soon! Stay tuned! Sayonara and wish me luck in Os!

Stay tuned.

YES THIS WILL BE MY LAST POST BEFORE I GO FOR MY OS.
But I'll be back. (Lol, still a month to go.)

34 MORE DAYS 34 MORE DAYS. Oh my god, I can't breathe right now.
Preliminary Examinations are gonna end soon and I know I didn't do well for it. Whatever, it's hard like ladhghvuraygjkq. It would be so much easier if I had studied.......... but I didn't. POA was a killer. Getting a 50/100 would already make me happy. But I can just feel it in my guts, I'm gna flunk this paper bad. Real bad. Okay, enough with my sad life.

I'm gonna show you a pic of myself taken like years ago. Looking at that picture, it's just crazy how I grew up so fast. I wanna be a kid, again.

Yes, that's me! I'm not really sure which year this photo was taken. Probably 10 at that time. Just look at me now. It's the opposite of who I used to be. I miss being innocent. I miss my hair. I miss my flawless skin. I miss my pajamas. I miss my double decker bed. I miss every SINGLE thing. :-(

It's actually true when people said that when we're kids, we want to be older. But being 16 this year, I think I prefer being a kid, y'know? It's stress-free and I don't have to worry about anything.

Don't get me wrong, I loooooove being a teenager, it's just that...... sometimes it gets tiring. I want to enjoy life but I don't think I'm able to, in Singapore. STUDY THEN WORK THEN RETIRE THEN DIE. That's basically what Singapore is. You have no idea how much I wanna travel all around the world and just relax.

Before I go for my Os, I thought I share some stuff about myself. :-)

AHA YES I'M A SAGGITARIUS AND I'M HAPPY I'M ONE. credits to: zodiacchic

I talk A LOT but there are things that I just can't share with everyone. So having h2h talks are actually pretty useless to me and it makes me cringe. I am a puzzle, you can say that. When it's time for me to open up, I will, someday. But right now, I just love to keep to myself. I may look like I don't care and talk a lot but I notice every single thing that's going on around me.

If you realise, this is prolly the longest post I've ever done. It's because I'll be gone for so long and I want you guys to be really updated, heheheehhehe.

Stay tuned, lovelies. *blow kisses*

What if....

So recently we received back our O level MT results and it was just disappointing.
A B3 is not enough. I know I'm good in my Languages and I can't afford to waste a grade. I need to get my As because I'm weak in all my other subjects. I teared a bit when my class didn't have anyone scoring an A for Malay... and I was hoping there would be one. Me. BUT NO. I broke down again after that. Bleh, cried for a few seconds and I stopped. And Shireen just had to say that 'It's no point crying over spilled milk.' And I realised there IS a second chance which is the Nov papers and I was like, 'Oh yah.'

Silly me.

Right, now it's the countdown again for the start of O levels!

54 M O R E DAYS. It's time for me to make or break it.

Currently, it's the Phase 1 of the Preliminary Examinations and when I was doing my Mother Tongue paper, I was just thinking, "What if I fail my Prelims? Parents would definitely 'kill' me, for sureeee."
I was guilty again for not studying. Always guilty and guilty and guilty.

Can someone tell me how do I find the drive to study? I don't know, I wanna do well but I'm lazy. Sigh.

If I had the chance to turn back time, would I? I would. I don't mind if I had to be a Sec 2 student. That bad, you know?

Hopefully, I'll blog another post soon before I go for my Os. Time to work hard and stop being a sloth.

Crybaby

81 more days to the start of Os. Nooooooooo, I just can't take the pressure. It's really taking a toll on me.

I'm left with 2 months. More or less. Giving me roughly about 10 days to study fr each subject.
Had a mini surprise test on Physics Formulas and I got back a filthy 0. I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANY OF THEM AND O'S ARE COMING NEARER.
When I got back the paper, I really wanted to cry............ and scream........... and throw a fit. I really wanted to. I'm worried. It made me ponder. At this rate I'm going, there's a high chance I'm gonna retain or go to ITE. Thinking about it makes me want to cry. Lately, I've been complaining alot and I'm always on the verge of crying. (It sucks.) It just frustrates me even more.

I'm useless. Never good fr anyone. Dumb and stupid. Always disappointing my parents.

I'm never gna make my parents proud.

I'm never gna make it.

Behind every happy face lies a sad heart...? Maybe.

"As she smiled, an amazing thing happened. The rain stopped, the sun broke through the clouds. Flowers bloomed in her footsteps, birds began to sing and the trees burst into blossom all around her."

CC

This is so embarrassing.
Ok... I actually have this HUGE crush on this Malaysian actor. Oh my god, can't believe I'm talking about this. But yes, I thought I should just blog about it or I'll go crazy. Heh, kidding.

So who's the guy I'm talking about? Shaheizy Sam, that's his name.

I love him.

Must. Stop. Being. So. Obsessed.

Popon

Hiiiii, I'm back from the Bandung, Indonesia! So, looking at the blog title, I'm guessing you guys are clueless about it. So Popon is a beautiful female horse that I rode during my trip at Bandung. She's so gorgeous. It was my first time riding a horse, hell yeah I enjoyed the ride. It's not always we get to ride a horse in Singapore. So basically Popon sums up everything I did at Bandung. BEST EXPERIENCE EVER.

I'm not gna say what I did in a systematic way. I'm just gna say what I can remember.

So at Bandung, we went to Kawah Putih, Pasar Baru, Trans Studio, Puncak and A LOT OF FACTORY OUTLETS, including Rumah Mode. I must say, Bandung is a great place to shop only if someone is willing to pay. In my case, no... I didn't have enough money and this makes me so frustrated! I wanted to buy so many things but lack of $$$

Time is also an issue. It's a little rushing. It'll be better if ONLY 2-3 families go together. Not that much commotion. 

I swear, those salesmen are EVERYWHERE. Not only that, they're very persistent in making people buy their items. The first few days, I kinda pity them. But as time goes by, I got used to it. Just refuse and walk away. 

Kawah Putih is located on top of a mountain, so it's so cooling. I like!

So what's there in Kawah Putih? Sulfur. That's all. Just a pool of sulfur. It's interesting, when you think about it. Where did all the sulfur come from? There's no connecting rivers or whatsoever to the sea. Fascinating.

Trans Studios is somewhat similar to Universal Studios Singapore. And it's an indoor theme park so it's very convenient. Not under the hot scorching sun like Singapore. But in terms of rides, Universal Studios is better. But when it comes to location, Trans Studios is the right place. In the afternoon, it got so crowded and you see people lining up at the entrance as if there's free things to be given away. 

Pasar Baru and Factories Outlets are mostly shopping (window shopping for me). Ayah got excited the most and he bought the most stuffs. Of course, it's his money so he can spend it all if he wants.

All I know is, I was more engrossed in getting souvenirs than buying my things. That is how much my friends mean to me. Haha!

The taking off and the landing of the airplane are the most exciting part of taking an airplane. I wouldn't mind taking it again heh.

I rate Bandung 3.5/5. I will definitely recommend people to go to Bandung. Maybe the next time I go to Bandung and Ayah lets me go shopping with his $$$, it will be 5/5 stars next time! ;-)

OH SHIT, SCHOOL'S STARTING SOON, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!