So, this time round, I have vowed to publish my post on time so here I am!! Edit: Late again LOL
January has been rather mundane, only because Fauzi had to go to Taiwan for 3 freaking weeks while I was struggling for my report submissions (which is over, thank God)
And also, I just got back my Mid Semester Assessments results and I'm so thankful for everything so far. Pretty sure I flunked my report writing so screw that, I'm so better off with examinations REALLY.
Lately, I've been getting so pressured to do well for my classes everyday and I get so paranoid that I will end up with a bad grade for the class. A bad grade means a goddamn "C". Edit: I just got my first undeserving C wtf
Other than being pressurised (by my alter ego) to do well, I've been so emotional about school. Went through my old photos right from the start of Y1S1 and I can't help but wish that I could relive those moments again, to spend more time with my friends, participate in school events and be a part of something big. I'm graduating and I'm afraid to step out to the working world. I see myself as an independent person but I hate this uneasy feeling. The school had a career fair for graduating students and some major companies came down - again, I feel shitty. I don't know what I want. I should have spent some time before this, to consider all the possible jobs that I see myself in... I'm hopeless. As much as I love doing retail, I don't see myself doing that for the long run. Burning my weekends and public holidays is not what I want to do, for the rest of my working life.
Maybe I'm just choosy. Thinking about jobs makes me feel so uneasy, I guess I'll just wait and see what awaits me in the future.
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1. Five ways to win your heart ✓
2. Something you feel strongly about ✓
3. A book you love ✓
4. Bullet your whole day (Here's the thing, I do the same thing every day - eat, sleep and just rot in my bed but yea sometimes I work........ that's all)
5. Things you want to say to an ex ✓
6. Your views on mainstream music ✓
7. Five pet peeves ✓
8. What you ate today ✓
9. How important you think education is ✓
10. Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play ✓
11. Your family ✓
12. Five guys whom you find attractive ✓
13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it ✓
14. What you wore today (I find this kinda redundant so I'm not gonna do it)
15. Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality ✓
16. Something you always think "what if" about ✓
17. Something that you're proud of ✓
18. A problem that you have had ✓
19. Five items you lust after
20. Your fears
21. How you hope your future will be like
22. Your academics
23. Something that you miss
24. Five words/phrases that make you laugh
25. Something that you're currently worrying about
26. Things you like and dislike about yourself
27. A quote that you try to live by
28. Somewhere you'd like to move to or visit
29. Five weird things that you like
30. One thing you're excited for
Somewhere you'd like to move to or visit
I don't have a specific place that I want to move to or visit, but when I scroll through tweets of beautiful places around the world, it gives me this tingling feeling.
What a beauty aye? Photos taken from Tumblr, credits to the owners.
I really hope that I do well so I can go places like this, I want to be successful. Most importantly, I want to be happy. Happiness, too, is with Fauzi.
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Back to what I've been doing for January (the interesting things of course)
Adventure Cove with my favourite boy! Such a great experience, managed to go snorkelling and most of the rides and I think it's great! This was before Fauzi had to fly to Taiwan so it was definitely worthwhile to spend some time with him and the siblings.
Meeting the busy SQ girl, I'm so proud of her and her achievements. She's living the life, travelling to so many beautiful places, meeting new people and grow as an individual.
Dress Up Day for work the other weekend! We get to wear sports attire because we are promoting our latest collection "Get Active"
Tiring day but I had fun, with the colleagues.
AND ON THE 30TH OF JAN, it marks the second year of being together with Fauzi!!!! YAY TO US, YAY FOREVER.
Fauzi is just so handsome, sigh. What did I do to deserve this boy?
There are days that we hit rock bottom but we always grow stronger each day. To be better for each other and work hard for the future. I love him more each day, and deeply. Even though we knew each other for 3 years, there's always something to learn about our relationship. Every day, I feel so blessed that I have someone by my side, through the ups and down. He makes me so happy, it's so hard to describe it but I just want my forever with him.
Happy 2nd anniversary, my precious. I love you so much. I'm so proud of you for staying strong for the last few days, you're a hero. It'll get better. I'm here for you, my love. Always.
